Theme by nostrich.
Text
For the past week I’ve been having random nightmares about my mom. I won’t go into them here, well I should because if anything happens I will know I had a premonition.
First Dream: My Mom, Dad, and I had an extra person in our home, some other man who wanted my mom to be pregnant. He was so determined for my mom to bear another child but we all kept saying “No, she can’t! She’s over 40 and she has all that fluid in her belly. Where would the child grow? “ He didn’t care. My mom said “I will die if I bare a child, I don’t have room in my belly to grow a child AND have this ascites (fluid) inside of me).”
Second Dream: My Mom’s blood pressure dropped to 80/??? (couldn’t see the bottom number in my dream). Her normal was I think 120/???. I panicked and took her to the hospital. They ended up keeping her again to regulate her blood pressure, she was scared but I was comfortable that she was there.
End of dream….
Let’s talk about reality now. Remember when the hospital canceled my mom’s first appt a long time ago in MAY 09 and re-scheduled for Aug 20th. But between that time, we had to take her to the Emergency Room because her condition worsened (3 different times mind you). Well she has been in and out of the hospital for 3 times even before that Aug 20th appt.
Guess what? Those bastards called her on Aug 19 to cancel THAT appt for Aug 20th! That would be the second time she was canceled! OMG!
What if we didn’t take her to Emergency on Father’s Day to find out what’s going on? That was in June! She wasn’t scheduled for an exam until Aug 20th?!? What if we just *waited* until the Aug 20th appt and have them call to cancel it AGAIN a day before we were suppose to take her in! I’m so pissed. These stupid mother fuckers are playing with my mothers life! They don’t give a shit about anyone but themselves. We still don’t have an appt with the liver specialist. What the FUCK!!! I’m so frustrated.
I wish there was something I could do to help this process along. You all know she applied for disablity. It was denied. *breathe* because the fucking doctor didn’t put her diagnosis on the paperwork. The EDD didn’t know why she was applying for disability. OH MY GOODNESS!!!! All that doctor (mutherfucker) had to do was fill out the damn paper and sign it and my mom would get disability for not working alllll this time. But NOOOO of course not. GRRR!!
So much going on.
